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[silverthunder]

Tonight is Return of the King... I can't say how much I'm looking forward to it - it's going to be absolutely fantastic!

I didn't get any work done on the Christmas fic yesterday... I was goofing off and doing other stuff. I'm going to try and work on it today, though... I want to finish it before Christmas, after all.

Um... also... Jeremy called last night, and it looks like we're breaking up. He's looking for more of an emotional commitment than I'm really ready to give at this point in my life. I'm only twenty-one, for crying out loud! I want to get out and see the world - do other things - before I think about settling down! He's only four years older, but I guess for him that's enough. Whatever.

Anyway, we're taking a break, and it's probably going to lead into breaking up. We've been dating for over a year, which seems like a lot right now, but I guess it's not really all that long... We didn't always get to see each other that often.

I was upset at first... but now I'm really not. I'm kind of glad that I'm going to be single again. No boyfriend, no commitment, no worrying about that. It's like freedom in a way.

I really don't think I'm ready for a serious relationship at this point in my life. I still feel like such a child. And I *like* being a child. I want it to continue as long as I can stretch it out for.

Plenty of time for other stuff later.

Comments

*hugs*

[daikenpriestess.livejournal.com]

Remember my favorite phrase. You can grow older without growing up. *grin*

My family: Heather, when are you going to grow up? You're *insert age here*. (Right now 28)

Me: Never! *mad cackle* I'm going to watch anime and play with toys FOREVER!!!

Family: *creeps off, giving me weird looks yet again*

Me: *angelic smile*

Re: *hugs*

[silverthunder]

^_^ I don't ever want to grow up, either.

[kasra-c.livejournal.com]

One year really isn't a very long time to be dating. Yeah, I knew people who got married after one year of dating, but it really depends on both of the people in the relationship. And especially if you're not looking for a strong commitment right now. It's good that you realize what you want, and that you're independent enough to to deal with it. I knew far too many girls in both high school and college who stayed in relationships much longer than was healthy, because they had a horrifying fear that their boyfriend would be the last guy on the planet that would ever look twice at them. Talk about low self-esteem; I'm ashamed to admit I suffered from the same, but at least I got over it shortly after getting to college. ^_^;

There's nothing wrong with being a child. ^_^ Heck, if you're like Ben and I, you can be married and still both be kids at heart (come on - how many married couples do you know give G.I. Joe figures to each other for Christmas?) Whereas I did get married at age 21, it was only after we'd dated for three and a half years and decided it was what we both wanted. *shrug* It's different for everyone.

[silverthunder]

*nod* I know... Actually, I'm not all that sad that it's over. I'll miss Jer, but I think it won't be that bad. And there is no way I'm staying in a relationship unless it's what I *want*. If no other guy ever looks at me, then so be it. I don't need a man to be happy.

And I'm going to be a child forever! :D Just right now it's easier, because I still live with my parents and go to school.

[chrysoprase00.livejournal.com]

I totally admire you, girl. You are one of the most intelligent women I know. I truly hope you keep that over the years. I am with you as far as remaining a child forever goes. Children are happy and they are not afraid to be themselves. Who would ever want to give that up? ^_^

[silverthunder]

*blush* Wow... thanks. I don't get called 'intelligent' very often. ^_^;; But it's nice to hear, especially coming from a friend.

I'm going to be a child for the rest of my life. :) I never want to give that up.