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silverthunder) wrote2005-02-10 09:16 am
silverthunder) wrote2005-02-10 09:16 am
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My mother came in here this morning and told me that she'd just gotten a phone call - my grandfather passed away last night.
It was... really kind of inevitable. He's very old and he's been sick for a long time; mom's been going to see him in the hospital every night. The nurse told her recently that he probably wouldn't last the week.
It's just... now.
I'm not sure what I should feel about this. My mother's family was so big, I didn't even know him very well - he had to divide his attention between a ton of grandchildren and great-grandchildren. But... yeah.
I gave my mom a hug and she cried. I feel sad for her... I wish I'd known him better, though. It seems like I should be feeling more than I do.
It was... really kind of inevitable. He's very old and he's been sick for a long time; mom's been going to see him in the hospital every night. The nurse told her recently that he probably wouldn't last the week.
It's just... now.
I'm not sure what I should feel about this. My mother's family was so big, I didn't even know him very well - he had to divide his attention between a ton of grandchildren and great-grandchildren. But... yeah.
I gave my mom a hug and she cried. I feel sad for her... I wish I'd known him better, though. It seems like I should be feeling more than I do.
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I know what you mean about the feelings, though. I wasn't really close to my grandmother who passed away last year, so I didn't shred a tear until I walked into the room she was laid out in. Then I was a mess. I don't know if you're going to the funeral, but so long as you're at peace with yourself about it, there's no reason to feel guilty for your feelings. (Guilty isn't exactly the word I want there, but I'm not sure the word I want actually exists, if you understand.)
Take care and peace be with you.