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Well, today's the day I start that belly-dancing thing. Erk... I'm nervous about this. I mean, I need it to get back into shape, but I'm still nervous. What if the morning class turns out to not really be a beginner's class, and I look like a complete moron?

I'm feeling insecure again... I don't like it!

It's like that feeling in high school when you walk into a new classroom, and every single person is part of that 'cool' people cliche, and you just don't fit in. It seems like everyone is against you.

I despise high school. I'm so glad I'm in college now, so I don't have to feel like that any more. Everyone is so nice.

I really hope it's a beginner class.

And I hope the people are nice and understanding.

I don't want to go any more... I want to stay home and not go anywhere any more. I like it at home. I have my computer, and my Ken and Omi dolls, and my kitty and dog. Everything here knows me. I know everything here. Why do I have to go out and do new things?

I wish someone I know would be there.